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Monday, July 11, 2011

Time Machine


Ek bochor er besi somoye hoye gelo tau kono post kora hoini.. aaj hotat ek bondhu-r bolate bhablam khuli ekbar n dekhi ki haal.. haal boroi behal.. purono post gulo pore nostalgic laga uchit na hese urobo thik bujhe uthte parlam na.. besh onek kichui palte geche ei ek bochor e .. ordhek bharat er ek round mere n bibhino sohor-e bibhino lok ke bibhino bhaye tupi poriye (read as mod beche) nijke jotoi marketeer bhabi bt DNA ta eki roye gelo.. i truly , madly n really miss my buddies.. comfort zone er baire ta khub kothin eta agge janleo ekhon haar e haar e ter pacchi.. kintu ebar ghure darabo.. i will have it my way.. abar chesta shuru korbo post korar, abar shuru korbo nijer style e bachar, abar shuru hobe paglamo.. heart will again rule over head..ABAR

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Haiya-Haiya


Ghari te bhor 4te baje, tau kichu-tei ghum aschena. Tai bhablam onek din por abar aaj blogspot e kichu likhi. Prothom jei blog ta post korechilam seta chilo Kolkata sahar e amar MBA – abhijan ke Kendra kore. Bhebechilam regarding college ja ja frustu kheyechi tar ekta choto khato kata chera korbo. Service marketing er bhasaye GAP analysis. But second year e ese ki je holo, sei odbhoot college ta kei bhalobese fellam.

“me” based cost benefit analysis gradually kemon “we” based e porinoto holo and part 2 er sesh obdi aste aste seta “us” based cost benefit analysis e ese daralo. A sense of team , camaraderie jeta class 12 er por konodin onubhab korini seta arekbar fire pelam. Tai ekhon at the end of 2 years of MBA , jokhon kina arr kichu din por sobai nijer nijer raastaye beriye porbe , I am having mixed feelings. Janla-r opor chupchap bose etokhon bhabchilam what I am going to miss and why. Sob kemon jeno chokher samne flash back hocchilo.

Right from “boudibaaz” avik er non stop boudibaji , abhra-r witty replies and suchi ke hostel obdi drop korte jawa, udo bhai er download kriya, doggy avik er “big girl” lau-er virruddhe jihad, horny arnie-r gf er pechon pechon rajasthan obdi dourano, Jei sandeep k placement sandeep bole code korechilam, tar “hyat/chorom/ebaba” gaach sandeep bole re-coding kora, soham er pagol kore dewa enthu and dwai er raat 1ekta-r samaye phone e cake banano-r instruction dewa n "porte bos" ba chandrima-r beshuro gaan ekhono kaan e baajche and chokher samne bhasche.

Debarshi-r amar proti durbolota and so called buri nazar, tony annaa-r maal kheye amader samlano and roll 15 er sathe dustu mishti prem kahini,kimba metro bar e kalu anirban er “pother prante oi sudor gaa-ye” gaan tar club mix version, hego dipan er CAM n DSS paper e dictate kore amader tokano, akash er gf jogar er honest chesta or laha-r 9th wonder mane orr belly botton baa hulo anirban er KOTLER ta khub mone porche.

Sreya-r sathe raat 3te – 4te obdi “bela bose” niye govir alochona kora, porer din abar sei sms guli sreya-r dwara leak kore dewa, riddho-r always cool attitude , sayan er attendance e perfect score card. Sarthak er sathe amar joint nongramo theory baa parlay da-r “bondhu tomar sathe ari-ari” gaan er rehearsal sob kichui besh picture perfect chilo.

Rohan er supermodel der har manano sexy hip, jasmin er never ending question stock and queries. Hunk debapriyo-r hunky-r prem e habu n dubu khawa . baccha Abhrajit er langcha and aat bhaat boka (ei blog ta porle oo er tolayeo kichu na kichu bhaat likhbe). Amnan & himayan er triangular “something” . khamaru-r afuronto panu-r stock n dr. D K lodh alias debdeep er japani tel er dui fota-r kamal. Abhi-shake er settle down bolar ishtyle sob kichui ekdum unique chilo. Each one of the 90 student had "gola" talent in one field or the other. It was not the dewal , equipments or building that made iiswbm for me. It was the sheer pleasure of experiencing two years of nichu-z and uchu-z together.

But I don’t know how aparajito became so close to heart. I guess our frequencies matched to a “nongra +jaa taa” level. I wish I had known him since langta age. UB te interview te ami jetam na , as I got the info abt the interview just 2 hour prior to scheduled time and I was in no condition to sit for the interview. You were the one who was super excited and forced me to sit for that. Tor sedin howrah theke chute ese amake venue te drop kora ta konodin bhulbona.

May be ghum aschena just due to the fear that sob kichu change hote jacche. Abar sei known comfort zone theke beriye ekta ochena jagat. Hoyto onek er sathe contact thakbena, hoyto kichudin por mon-ei porbena still ekta bhoye bhitore dourache. But asha kori sobai bhalo thakbe and nijer nijer jayegaye fatiye perform korbe. Amader ei family-r sob member der jonnye Robert da-r 4te line mone porlo (copy paste marchi)

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Saturday, April 3, 2010

6 - 1 - 6

3rd April 2010 ,Time 0149 hrs :- Just 40 mins agge ghar e dhuklam. Aaj hotat ferar poth e kheyal holo je porikkha shuru hote ar 10 din oo baki nei.

10 din >>>> 13 ta paper + 1 viva + 1 dissertation” .

Bhabte giye matha ta bhari ,paa ta halka & pet ta garam hoye gelo..”nimno chap” er moton gari moddhyei kemon ekta low pressure zone create holo and I almost got sucked into it. Jeev / ingrezi te tongue ta lomba kore sidha garir janla-r baire matha ta ber korlam to let some oxygen in. Kaaj holo, ei jatraye dom bondo hoye mara jawar theke beche gelam. Mundu ta bhitore kortei abar same porikkhar bhoot tara korte laglo. Bujhlam this bhoot is here to stay. Aro joto din jabe, ei bhoot nijer samrajya bistar korbe ebong kichudin por kono ek petni-r sathe biye shaadi kore amar mathar oporei sukher sangsar patbe.

Nijeke prosno korlam eta keno holo?
Kichukhon waiting signal dekhanor por conscience theke uttor elo BY DEFAULT.

“by default” bhablam eta ki uttor,hardly 5-6 seconds pore realize korlam uttor ta sothik. Sara bochor porini, ordhek paper er naam last week janlam,Xerox er pahar barite stuup kore rekhechi so jaa hoche seta swabhavik. Realization ta hotei chot kore stats niye boslam
10 din -----13 ta main paper……per paper 1 din oo nei….so Din er basis e hiseb na kore hourly basis e korbo as it will give a feel good factor. Motamoti ekta conclusion e elam je ebar Maa saraswati FREE HIT and POWER PLAY option na dile amar arr kichu korar nei. 13 ta paper er naam ekta kagoz e likhlam, Jei gulo te mone holo pass korte pari tick mark dilam and rest e cross ,mane oi gulo te molest howar theke keu bachate parbena.
Result was 6 TICK – 6 CROSS. Ekta pore roilo ,sei paper e ki ache amar dharonar baire so as a benefit of doubt I left it unmarked.Bola toh jayena Jodi ota te utre jai. jei 6 ta paper e CROSS ache tar jonnye strategy oo thik kore fellam, je oi gulo te BASIC INSTINCT use korbo and ekdum original uttor debo.
Tv ta on korlam. News dekhbo bole channel surf korte korte Kolkata tv te pouchalam. Khobor Kings xi Punjab aaj abar hereche. Nijer thekeo dur obostaye kauke dekhle jaa hoye , amar tai holo. The sinking feeling came to an halt. Niche breaking news e flash holo – Kolkata Sosurbarite Rahul Mahajan . Er thekeo joghonyo breaking news er ashonka-r bhoye totkhonat TV ta off korlam.
Birokti bhab elo. Thik korlam ekhuni porte bosbo and tana portei thakbo . Ochena Boi and amar priyo bondhuder manufacture & supply kora notes khullam. 2 Page portei confidence chorom level e chole gelo . Mone holo yes I can. Confidence level er parod er tehlaye boi khata bondo korlam & blogspot khule boslam. Janina keno Aaj khub jore blog peyechilo so last 35 min dhore blogalam ebar bhabchii boi er bhitor phire jayi…so signing out for now